There is no happily ever after

My hands are sore
And my feet are numb
My vision blur
I lose my train of thoughts
I have been sitting here for far too long
Fooling around
Playing optimist
Waiting on happiness to come and greet me
Come greet me and breathe upon my face
Cause I actually had started to think of happiness as a man
A man who would come riding upon the horse
Smile at me and say,'at last I am here my love"
Sway me off my feet and take me away to this distant place
Where bells would be ringing
And everything there would be bright and merry


but here is the thing
happiness aint no man
and it obviously doesn't ride a horse
i have been delusional
imagining stuffs that aint for real
so when i was almost ready to say happily ever after
the bitch "Reality" knocked my door
screaming out loud
Enough of drooling over
she dragged me down,
slapped me across my face with truth so bitter
i almost puked
i hate reality i want her to be gone
but she doesn't care and she doesn't even fear
so she keeps standing by my side
like a shadow, she never leaves me alone
i loathe her, i spite her
but it barely makes her twitch
i feel weak, i feel hung over
I feel like am done
I feel like saying
No I don’t wanna keep going on,
i give up
cuz there is no ending to this misery
and there is no man called happiness
who rides a horse.
There is no Prince Charming
and there is no happily ever after