There are plenty of times when I wish I had no strings
attached, no people I was connected with and no worldly things that I was
inclined towards. I wish I could go on living like a nomad wandering around
places to places. Not worrying about who I leave behind or carry on with. Far away
from all these people I know, all by myself; a journey where I choose my own path,
create destination and tackle whatever fate that awaits me ahead.
No one to question no one to answer , what a relief it would
be to live without expectations!
I always wonder how different my life can be if I ever get
to break free from all these attachments and emotions? Is it possible to ignore
the feelings that I have for these people in my life? Is it possible for us to
live all by ourselves and not be attached with anyone? Would it make me
antisocial? Lots of questions, confusions. But, I know I cannot be an
antisocial person. Cause as much as I want to be free from any kind of
attachment I do not dislike being around people and having good time. So, what
is it that excites me to run away for a wild nomadic adventure? Well, I guess
am just tired of all these emotional drama and the expectations.
Being sandwiched between expectations and fear of not being
able to meet those expectations along
with people who constantly ignore the fact that I am giving everything I have
to meet their expectations can really be the reason more than enough for me to
loathe attachments . And when I am
constantly trying to meet the ends and still not being able to satisfy these
people around me makes me wish a life without any attachments. Furthermore the
most absurd thing to put up with is the ignorant people in our lives who even
after knowing their actions to be wrong/unjustified and will result into really
hurtful consequences will still go ahead and do that very thing (sometimes
repeatedly) and then refuse to take responsibility leaving you to deal with it!
Sometimes I feel that these emotions and attachment were
created in order to inflict misery in our lives. Even though it spreads love,
it equally shares the power to hurt. Moreover even love leads us to pain, disappointments
and emptiness. It makes us weak and
vile, leaving us with confusions. Had
there been no emotions there would have been no love and no hurt. We could live
the life wandering around aimlessly. We can simply use our mind and body for living.
Living now can be defined in many ways. But for me living
means to be able to break the boundaries, crossing the limits and having no regrets/guilt. However when you
are attached or connected with people then it can be pretty hard to achieve.
Simple as it is, when you are attached with people they won’t let you have your
way or you cannot always have your way because with each attachment or
connection you develop new responsibilities and demands. Now, there are people
who ignore their responsibilities but when it comes down to principles, my 1st
priority goes to humanity. Without having the sense of humanity one cannot
really be called a human. The whole concept of being called a social animal
lies on the fact that we are supposed to be sensible. Hence, tangled in-between
the responsibilities and the emotions that arises with these attachments one
will always find it difficult to achieve that epic freedom one so much desires
to have. So, here I remain, wishing and wondering only if I had no strings
attached.
